This is a huge entry that is pretty much just an explanation of what I did this weekend. Didn’t want to bog up anyone’s Friends list with a bunch oh randomness.

But just a snippet..

There’s only us
There’s only this
Forget regret or life is yours to miss
No other road no other way
No day but today
– From Rent

So I just did dishes. Got up earlier than normal this morning. Can’t get in the shower yet because the dish washer is running. Can’t make coffee because the coffee pot is in the dish washer.

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Well, I just wrote my first java program. Mind you, it was just the equivalent of the standard “Hello World” text that is in every programming book, but still…I’m on the path anyway. I just got a new Java book today, along with a book about using Java and XML together. Couple that with the XML book that I already have and I should be adding some pretty valuable skills to my resume.

Robin was really upset tonight, and unfortunately there wasn’t anything I could do for her. I hate that. I hate it when I can’t help a friend in pain, and it’s even worse when that person is four hours away and you can’t even give them a hug. I thought being apart from her when things were good was hard. This is worse.

We’ll get used to it in time, I’m sure. At least, that’s what I keep telling myself.

Doesn’t matter, though. I don’t care how hard it is. She’s worth it.

From the New York Times, January 15th, 2003

Running Fast Into The Past

Because that’s what I am of course…

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Last night I was told that America has changed since September 11th, 2001. I was told that the old way of doing things did not apply. That this was a “new America, where stuff can and will come get us from where ever it happens to be based.”

First of all, I want to address this myth of a new America. We haven’t changed. The only thing that I see being different now from the time prior to September 11th is that the government is a lot less subtle about the fact that they play games with our Constitutional rights. I see our leaders expecting us to blindly believe what they tell us in the interest of “national security.”

The most recent example of that involves, of course, the “war” with Iraq. Donald Rumsfeld said that the fact that U.N. Weapons Inspectors didn’t find evidence of weapons of mass destruction “could be evidence, in and of itself, of Iraq’s noncooperation.” So what they are saying, in essence, is that if you find weapons of mass destruction you go to war, but if you don’t find weapons of mass destruction you still go to war because not finding them just means they are hidden better than you expected.

In other words…Like it or not, kids, we are going to war.

But I was talking about the “new America.”

Are we a more religious country now? No. Church attendance was up after September 11th, but quickly dropped back to pre 9/11 numbers. The same thing applies to military enlistment. There was a lot of interest right after the attacks (people couldn’t wait to get over to Afghanistan and show Osama Bin Laden who was boss) but soon enough the interest went away.

Are we a more charitable country now? Not by a long shot. Here in Tampa, two local charities (Goodwill and Metropolitan Ministries) had to cut employees and programs because donations have dropped so much in the last year.

We’re afraid now. More afraid then we were before, if that is at all possible. Every night on the news we hear about some new biological scare, or that a possible bomb was detected at an airport. We’re told about how increased the security is at public events because there have been “unsubstantiated threats.” We’re told that Saddam Hussein, who during the Clinton administration had faded to near comical obscurity (and not just by me…I remember talking to many people about him during the latter part of the 1990’s in a “remember that guy? What a joke he was” fashion) is suddenly a bigger threat to us than Osama Bin Laden ever dreamed of being. We’re told that we should be willing to suffer “minor inconveniences” and give up some of our basic Constitutional rights so that the government can do it’s job and protect us from the bad guys.

Who are the bad guys?

Does anyone really know anymore?

I suppose it’s all worth it. I suppose that, in the end, in order to keep ourselves safe and protect the world from the evils of terrorists we need to go through all of this. We need to root out the seeds of terrorism and stop them cold. Bring them to trial or take them out where they hide. Just like we did Osama Bin Laden.

We did get Osama Bin Laden, right?

Didn’t we?

Just had the following conversation with the writer of this comment. The names have been changed to protect the silly. And because it’s funny. And it’s my journal.

Debate