Early Morning Spammy Goodness

So I received the following through email this morning…

From: 8177077741@messaging.sprintpcs.com

The police found a body with no brain, Fucked up teeth, a small Dick, and a swollen asshole. I’m worried. Call me if you are okay

Can’t really figure if it’s just spam, or if someone actually went through all the trouble of sending me an email from the cell phone so that it would be relatively anonymous. I’ve gotten similar things before ON my phone from the LJ text messaging service. In any case, I thought it was kind of amusing. If I’ve really got someone out there who has a bone to pick with me, they need to drop a sack and come out with it.

And my teeth are just fine, thankyouverymuch.

*** Edit *** Heh…the perp has fessed up. Apparently I was supposed to recognize the number. 🙂 Of course, now that I know the source, it makes perfect sense.

Today…

Has been a pretty good day.

Traffic court went REALLY well. Because I had an attorney my case was heard first (I can only assume that, out of sympathy for the fact that attorneys charge by the hour, the courts give you priority), and I was in front of the judge for all of 5 minutes. He asked if we wanted to change my plea, which we did. We pled “No Contest” and asked for Advanced Drivers Instruction. The judge turned to the trooper and asked if that was alright with him, and it was. He then asked to see my insurance card (my other ticket was for no proof of insurance). That being in order, he signed the paperwork and sent me on my way.

Yay!

Now I just have to take a 12 hour driving class.

Boo.

Got to work by about 10, shortly before my co-worker left for the day because of back pain. Boss offered to take me to lunch, and I asked if we could go to Applebee’s so that I could get a Weight Watchers friendly meal. Got the Onion Soup (which still rocks), the Mequite Chicken Salad (good, but a bit dry due to the amount of dressing you get), and the Raspberry Cheesecake (which was incredible). All told, 13 Weight Watchers points for lunch. Considering that I only had a Banana for breakfast, this was quite acceptable. I DID have a few samples at Costco afterwards (the boss wanted to stop by), but I counted a full point for every sample I had. Still have 9 points for the day, and I plan on going for a walk when I get home to get another 3.

Took and posted my “honesty” pictures last night. Sobering, that. I think I was most disturbed by the back pictures. K. insists that the folds I see are loose skin that losing weight isn’t going to help, but to me it just looked like huge rolls of fat. I’m proud of how good I’ve been this week, and I love how there seems to be a big circle of us that are really refocusing and getting inspiration from each other, but it’s still depressing to see that.

I’ve had this…I dunno…dream I guess…Of one day having nudes or semi-nudes taken of me that wouldn’t be…well, gross. Not for any pornographic reasons. Just because I think artful nudes are really cool, and I’d love to be a subject of one, but I’ve never had the kind of body that could pull it off in an aesthetically pleasing manner. Seeing those last night made me realize how far away I am at the moment from having that become a reality.

And before it does, I’m going to have to have surgery to remove the excess skin.

So this is my current goal – To get to 225 pounds. When I do, I’m getting the surgery. I don’t care what I have to do to pay for it, but I’m doing it. When I do, I’ll undoubtedly lose more weight as there is a LOT of excess skin on my body. Once I’ve healed I’ll find out where my weight is and go from there.

But I have to get there first.

419.2/288.6/225

I can do this.

Survey Says…

Ok…so the results are in for the Goth Cruise weight gain.

10.6 pounds.

What’s really scary is that I got back on the ball Monday as opposed to waiting until after my weigh in. God knows how much I actually gained on the cruise.

I’m trying to be ok with it, though. I’ve refocused, and I’ve been doing good this week. I just need to keep it up.

On that note…xanyboi started a meme of sorts to help with his weight gain, and I’m going to do the same. Starting tonight, I’m going to start taking a picture of myself, once a month, in my skivvies (or damn near to them). Something I’m going to post here, under a filter, to keep me honest. These pictures aren’t going to be pretty. No good angles. No editing. Just a straight on of me in all my glory. If you’ve got images in your head of me being a hottie and want to keep them that way, I’d suggest you opt out of this filter.

But I think it’s a good idea. It’s accountability. And something to look forward to. I need little baby step things like this, I think.

*** Edit *** On another note – The meeting I went to tonight marks my 5th anniversary with Weight Watchers. Despite the setbacks of the last few years, I am still 130.6 pounds lower than I was when I started.

That’s something, anyway.

Hello my friends, we meet again.

Just thought I’d make a quick post to the new folks who have added me since meeting at Goth Cruise. For starters, there are two filters that I have here that I give people the option of joining. The first is my Asshole filter, which I use whenever I’m posting about things that are likely to piss someone off. It’s kind of my “you’ve been given fair warning – this isn’t going to be nice” filter. I don’t use it all that often, as I generally try to avoid being a dick, but sometimes it happens and if you want to take part in that you have the option. I also have a sex filter. Pretty self explanatory, that. It can get graphic and kinky, and sometimes peeking into my perversions can be a bit creepy. Again, fair warning.

I’m 33, divorced father of a diabetic 10 year old boy who I have joint custody of. We live with netgoth and her 15 year old son. I don’t really consider myself a Goth, but I occasionally step into the role. maladr1n once described me as a “Giddy, Geeky, Teddy-Bear of Darkness” and I think that fits. On the whole, I’m bouncy and optimistic and I love interacting with people. I also like “dark” entertainment. I’m a diagnosed Manic Depressive but with therapy I’ve weaned myself off of the meds I was taking and have it largely under control. I’m a big geek, and I’m proud of it. I’m a professional Cold Fusion developer, and the company I work for lets me get away with working from home 3 days a week. I’m an actor, primarily working with the Jobsite Theater (resident company of the The Shimberg Playhouse at the Tampa Bay Performing Arts Center). At one time I aspired to act for a living, but I’m quite content with what I do now. I play far too much World of Warcraft, and am the Guild Leader of a small, “family” guild on Lothar called The Children of Midian.

In November of 2000 I looked like this. I had two strokes that year, and weighed in at around 419.2 pounds. I went on Weight Watchers in January of 2001. In April of 2003 I weighed in at 233 pounds, 186.2 pounds less than when I started and 8 pounds away from my personal goal of 225 pounds. At that point I started to back slide, and in the almost 3 years since I’ve put back on 46 pounds. Most of it was pretty quick, and I’ve actually hovered in the 270-280 range for a good portion of that time. I acknowledge that I have still made a major accomplishment, but the fact that I’ve put that much back on still bothers me a great deal.

I have been told on several occasions that people like my writing, but the truth is I don’t do so much of it here anymore. I used to write long essays about my view of the world, but I guess I burned out or got burned one too many times after doing so. Occasionally I’ll try to find the inspiration to write something with some depth to it, but I generally fall flat. As a result much of what you’ll find here currently will consist of brief snippets of my daily life and links. I will always cut tag meme’s and photos, and generally try not to spam your friends page.

I shot a man in Reno. Just to watch him die.

Ok, I didn’t really do that. Just thought this was sounding incredibly boring and thought I’d spice it up a bit.

Oh – And one other thing. I have dealt with a lot of death in recent years. One of the downsides of having as big a circle of friends and family as I do, I suppose. As a result, I’ve asked all my friends to do something for me in 2006. Don’t die. Pretty simple request, that. Hopefully not too much to ask.

Welcome to my own little egotistical slice of the world. Hope you enjoy your stay.